Apology :(

Before I say my piece I find I must apologize while repeatedly bashing my head to the floor in an attempt to bow as low as possible…I really didn’t mean to abandon you all, it’s just that life interrupted…well I’ll get into that now without making further excuses (though I hope you can forgive my selfishness)…..

So, without further ado, I have something I need to get of my chest…

Without trying to sound vain or self-important, I’ve always felt a little misplaced from reality, I don’t know if it’s because of my history (as short as it is), or whatever, but I’ve tended to view life in a color most people would find…strange… Now, here in America that might be what we call individuality, though personally I don’t believe individuality is something that should ostracize an individual….

But still, I digress…the real situation I am running into is this…yes I’ve always felt misplaced, like I really don’t belong, but I’ve always felt at peace with the fact, I had a place just in knowing that even if the rest of the world found me different, in my head and my heart I would always find my place to belong…

Then, without warning or preparation, I was thrust into bachelorhood, the dreaded time when every child has to face the world on their own. Now, the world is crowding in, my head is overflowing, and my heart is heavy…in this storm of “reality” I am losing that place I found so comforting in my childhood, my sense of self is slowly being eroded by the necessities of the daily grind…

I don’t want to lose the magic of my childhood but I fear that in order survive and “grow” up I must…maybe it’s because I’m an artist at heart, but this concept terrifies me, the idea of succumbing to the routine of a “nine to five” life until I retire *shiver* I have no words with which to describe such terror…

So I’m reaching out for help…I have reached the limits of my knowledge and I ask those on here who have come before…how were you, as adults, able to transition from child to adult and still maintain your sense of self? Is it even possible?

 

A poem

Struggle

Let us thrash

In a sea of despair

Let us drown

In the sky’s tears

Let us writhe

In our emotions

And grow

In our compassion

As we struggle

With life’s unusual puzzle

By: Cedrick Shande-Jones

 

 

Chronicles of The Moon: Third Night

Okay, it’s a week behind schedule but chapter 3 is out. With that the story has reached 4000 words, half the word count of a novella, so in commemoration I would like to ask for your input on the story thus far: What do you like? What don’t you like? What should I take into consideration for the upcoming chapters and so on…

I look forward to all of your wonderful input

 

Apathy

I know it’s not the post I promised but it’s something that I find I must get off my chest…

So, I just had one of those ‘Eureka!’ moments. Well actually it was more of a disturbing discovery of a long hidden piece of the puzzle that is my psyche. A piece I’m finding hard to swallow, though surprisingly easy to digest.

You see, I’ve always felt this world to be cruelly apathetic. It’s hard to put into words or describe why it is I feel this way; yet I can easily wrap it up in one nicely packaged word…disgusting.

There in lies the beginning and the end of my problem, I find humanity disgusting.

I’ve seen so much darkness within the human soul, my own included, that I find even the dimmest light to be highly suspicious.

I’ve been betrayed by so many people, so many things, from so many angles; from my parents, to my family and my ‘friends’, from education to faith, love and beyond. The interesting thing is that all of these are things and people one should be able to lean on in times of strife and discomfort; yet at one time or another, in one way or another, each one of these has run me over, picked me up, brushed the dirt from my body, gotten back into the driver’s seat, and proceed to once more run me down.

Support…Honor…Integrity…Love…Loyalty…Trust…HA!!!

What a cruel cosmic joke!

Tis no mystery to me why seeing an act of compassion has me questioning the motives of the so-called ‘compassionate’.

The more compassionate one is towards another, the less I trust them. Tis true, I’m more comfortable amidst enemies than I am amongst friends.

Only, I have more friends than enemies. In life I have been blessed with more advantages than disadvantages. I’ve been given more opportunities than most. In the grander scheme of things I truly believe myself to be more blessed than cursed. This is a lot more than most of the human population can claim, even among those living a life of utter luxury.

Still, if the world was to end tomorrow I would honestly not care. If the country was to sink to the bottom of the deepest abyss, I would be more fascinated than distraught. If aliens ever decided to invade us…I can promise you, I would be the first to defect.

I hold no desire to save a people who don’t want to be saved. Now, I consider myself neither a hero nor a villain; it’s just…people strive their whole lives to make an impact on this world, no matter if it’s positive or negative…whereas, I would rather be left alone in relative comfort to watch as humanity, in all its glorious stupidity, drives itself to destruction.

If ever I happen to actually make an impact on my silly brothers and sisters it will come only from my attempt to make a positive impact on myself. This is my selfishness, and yes, I am a selfish person.

In the midst of all this I now realise, it is not the world which is cruelly apathetic, it is me.

What I find most intriguing about this whole scenario is that I’ve only been alive for 22 years. I’m still tragically young, I lack a lot of wisdom, and I’m nowhere near my old miser phase yet. But this is the path life has decided I should walk, and I can only see the path ahead getting darker for I truly believe it will take a miracle to redeem the stain, we as humans, have become.

At the end of the day I can only sigh. For a race with so much potential for greatness we squander it all by acting worse than our monkey cousins…sad…

Okay, now that THAT is off my chest I can get back to writing chapter three…it will be up soon

-Cedrick

 

…….

OK first, let me apologize…Unfortunately I have yet to finish chapter 3 of Chronicles of the Moon.

This is due, of course, to various reasons, the major one being my complete underestimation of life’s rigors (In other words….procrastination….)

Okay, 

Apology over, I’ll make sure to have it up by tomorrow as well as an update from C.S Jones

Thank you all for your patience,

-Cedrick

 

Welcome to Vaelyn

As promised here is the beginnings of my map. As I said it's currently pretty scrawny, but expect it to grow. I'll walk you through the bullet points of what we know so far: -To start, Vaelyn is a world very similar to Avalon in that it's in an alternate dimension of Earth, and like most dimensions, if one is interested in looking, a gateway can be found. -So far we've only discovered two lands, Ellesmere and Feilandal. -In the Northeast of Vaelyn lies Feilandal. -As you already know, Feilandal is the Land of Wolves, where Katja and Azule reside. -In the Southeast we find the Isle of Ellesmere. -Currently there is civil unrest raging among the locals, so unfortunately explorers such as myself are prohibited entrance. No worries though, I'm working on it. Thankfully, I know the chronicler who resides there so it's only a matter of time before I can introduce you to its wonders. That's all we know for now... Look forward to updates -Jones

 

Tomorrow I begin my expedition into Feilandal, I’m pretty excited! 

Expect an update to the map on Wednesday, barring misfortune of course.

 

-Jones

 

Chronicles of the Moon: Second Night

The second chapter is now up! Yay! ^_^

I’m really having a lot of fun writing this story, I hope you guys are enjoying it as well

Don’t forget to leave me feedback under the criticism page or even general comments.

Also, because this seems to have a lot of people understandably confused, on the book shelf there is a tab labeled ‘Season One: Winter’, ignore it. It will only take you to the archives page. It’s actually only supposed to be a header but I’m not sure how to disable it without removing it, I’m still trying to figure out the best layout mechanics…

Outside of that, expect chapter three next Friday.

Enjoy your visit and see you again soon,

-Cedrick

 

 

Hello World! Part 2

Hello to all and welcome.

First off, I would like to thank you for visiting our currently unexplored world. I’m sure some of you are dreadfully confused. After all who is this roguishly good looking gentleman who just popped into existence talking about ‘unexplored’ worlds? Where did he come from?

Well now, allay your fears and allow me the pleasure of this introduction. My nom de plume is C.S Jones. Oh! But I am far more than a simple pen name, parish the thought! I am a being onto myself, a whole new entity! Put simply, I am an alter ego. I am the embodiment of a throbbing desire, a dream that has burst from its gilded cage to fly the skies in abundant freedom.

That’s who I am, here’s what I do. I am an explorer, a gypsy, a mapmaker, and your guide through this world’s wonders. Through my travel logs I shall provide you a firsthand account of the lifestyles, the culture, the fauna, and the landscapes of worlds you could only begin to imagine. My job is to bring you into our world and give you the presidential tour.

Next week shall mark the beginning of my travels in the lands of Feilandal.

Also, sometime in the near future I shall unveil a map on which I am working, a map of this world as it is currently known. Expect it to be scrawny, but as you journey with us, Cedrick and I, the map will grow as we grow and discover new lands.

Look forward to it and expect me soon.

 

-Jones

 

Chronicles of The Moon: The First Night

You should know I’m very pleased with myself…drum roll please…I made my deadline!

The first chapter is done and scheduled to publish at midnight

Look forward to it,

-Cedrick

 

Chronicles of the Moon: Prologue

It’s a little late, but here it finally is. Find it in the tab to the right ——–>

I’ll try to get chapter 1 up by Friday

Till next time enjoy,

Cedrick